xtremeroswellia | Entries tagged with school: graduation

It has been a -long- day. So I put in my cover letter/resume/references for that admission's counselor position at Millikin...probably won't get it, but I hope I do. I need a good job with health insurance so I can move out on my own.

SAAC training today was scheduled for 11 hours. I left after 7. All they had left today was watching videos (which I've seen multiple times) and role-playing, and I felt confident that Nick and Anna could handle that on their own. There were only 4 people going through the training anyway.

But I'm wore out after those 7 hours. I got my grades, and I'm officially going to be able to graduate (wasn't really too worried about flunking anything), and I actually did better than I thought I would in my hated history course.

So graduation is 3 days away. I really don't want to go. Can I just stay home and sleep instead? Please? You know, I think most people are happy about college graduation, and I am on some level. No more crappy useless papers to write, no more biology notecards to memorize. But for some reason I don't feel very happy. Actually I'm feeling rather depressed for whatever reason. Which I guess maybe that's normal too, but I don't like it.

*Sighs*

Have I mentioned that I'd like to move out? I love my parents and we get along well for the most part, but I'm just feeling the need to get a place of my own. I think I need to know that I can take care of myself. And I like the idea of not having to ask permission to use the telephone, the Internet, the car, etc, etc. And I really want a dog. And if I move out in the next few months, I'm going to go adopt that dog that I fell in love with at Homeward Bound named Honey. The golden lab/pit bull mix. She's such a sweet dog and she deserves to be in a nice home, not a small cage.

And I really do NOT want to keep working as a secretary at this same job I've been at for over three years now. It's boring, and I can't stand one of my bosses. I love the other one to bits, but...I don't know, I feel like it's sucking the lifeforce out of me. It's time to move on.

Whatever. I'm done rambling now.

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Close My Eyes from the Buffy Soundtrack

Graduation Day.

I'm not really all that excited about it because there are 454 of us graduating and it's going to be a very long, very boring ceremony. I'm kinda hoping that the city's mayor will speak and in the middle of his speech he will change into a rather large snake like the mayor in the third season finale of Buffy the Vampire Slayer did. That would at least make things more interesting. :) Ok, so I'm a little weird, but what can I say?

Bought Mom a dozen white roses for Mother's Day and went ahead and gave them to her since we live in the same house and I couldn't have exactly hid them from her. She liked them. Lilacs are actually her favorite flower, but I couldn't find any, so I got roses instead.

Been working on a website for my friend's wedding. If for some reason you actually care to see it, you can check it out here and see what I've done so far (any comments/suggestions would be greatly appreciated): http://ljodear.topcities.com/index.html

I think I'm going to apply for a job as an admissions counselor at my college because they're looking for a graduate from this year to fill the position, and surprisingly, I am actually qualified for it. Whether I'll get the job or not, who knows, but it's full time and I'm assuming full benefits. Which means if I like it, I can save up some money, buy a laptop, then get an apartment and move out. Then I can get a dog :)

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: Feelin' Love by Paula Cole

I've decided that I'm moving to Never, Never Land. Hey, Sis, you wanna come with me? :) We'll go to the happy land where we never have to grow up and we can fly and stuff. :D

Seriously. I finished my -last- paper that I had to write. I should be feeling MUCH more relieved than I am, but instead I'm sitting here feeling rather...disenchanted for a number of reasons, which I won't go into detail about here. Thank you, Demelza, for listening, I do feel better since we talked :)

I can't believe I'm graduating in two weeks. I'm really not very excited about it. Actually, I'm not feeling excited about anything...ah, screw it.

As my cousin frequently says, fuck the freeworld.

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: Breakdown by Mariah Carey

Maybe it's too soon to say this, but I feel like I'm finally ready to settle into this semester. Considering it's half gone, it's kind of funny. I think I just needed a week of relaxation, although the work part of Spring Break wasn't so relaxing. But oh well.

I got exactly six hours of sleep last night. And we're talking six -good- hours of sleep for a change. It was great, I woke up feeling rested. Although I did have a nightmare of some kind at 4:30 this morning about being hunted by a predator. I blame the dream on my biology of dinosaurs class. :) At any rate, I've determined that six good hours of deep sleep are better than 8 or more of restless sleep. Give me the six deep sleep hours ANY day. I felt great all day long.

I went to classes, went to the assault center to get information for the sexual assault awareness counselor's meeting this Thursday, then I came home and wrote a history paper, did a bunch of prep. stuff for all of the campus events next week, and after I got all that done, I laid down and watched one of my favorite movies of all time: Twister. It was great. I didn't feel stressed out today at all. It was weird. I thought I'd being tearing my hair out over the history paper alone. But I have lost no hair today. :D

And I'm starting to look forward to graduation. Weird. I was totally dreading it before. Now I'm just kind of excited. I really honestly think a lot of it has to do with going down to Blackburn. I think it helped me reconnect with a part of myself that I thought was lost.

All I know is that I feel pretty damned good for once.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: "Respect the Wind" Van Halen

So last night I dreamt that my best friend from jr. high was getting married, and had invited all of my current friends (none of whom she actually knows) but she didn't invite me. In the dream, one of my best friends, Lea, was telling me I could go to the wedding anyway and I was like..."I'm not going to some wedding I wasn't even invited to!" And she kinda shrugged and went into the church. It was very bizarre.

Oh, and if I have to read ONE more story where someone kills off Bosco or Faith, I'm going to scream! Damn, people, get a new idea, would ya? No offense to anyone who's written one, but I'm getting sick of reading them. My new plan is to just avoid them all together. No more death fics. Evil. It's spring, we should be happy.

I do NOT want to go back to school tomorrow. I haven't even started my homework for this week. Yeah, I'm a slacker. I just haven't felt like doing it. I'm graduating in May, and I just don't care about school anymore at this point. It's not like I'm taking any classes I actually really like. And Lea's wedding is June 21, so as maid of honor, I have to plan her wedding shower and throw it in early May, as well as all these assignments and worrying about graduation and all the family obligations I have coming up. And if ONE more person asks me what I'm going to do after I graduate, I'm either going to throttle the person or have a nervous breakdown.

*sighs* Okay. I'm better now.

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: "The Wreckoning" by Boomkat

Oh, thank God it's Wednesday. I just found out that both of my Friday classes were canceled! :) I just hope I don't have to work Friday and can spend the day at home resting and writing. Next week is spring break. Not planning on doing anything and I'm hoping I don't have to work because I have so much homework and sleeping and writing to catch up on.

I think I did surprisingly well on my biology test today. I say surprisingly well because I barely studied for it. I did some in my history class and then a little last night while working on this fic with Bree, but usually I study a lot more. The material wasn't really very difficult this time, or at least it didn't seem difficult, I guess I'll see when I get it back. I think I pulled at least a B on it.

New Third Watch this Monday! :) Yay! Can't wait for that. And it's a new Third Watch WHILE I'm on break, which makes it even better.

Mom's still harassing me about getting more tickets for graduation. I'm like, Mom, the tickets aren't even being handed out until MAY. It's MARCH. Not much I can do about it right now. *rolls eyes* Oh, well.

As my cousin frequently says, what can ya do?

Oh! And it's like, 55 degrees out and it's sunny so I'm in this supremely good mood. That and I'm working on this story with Bree right now, which makes my mood even better. :)

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: It's My Time by Martina McBride is stuck in my head

I am so bored right now I could scream. I usually wouldn't complain about not having my 9 am class, but I still had my 8 a.m. one and I still have to go to my one at 10. I just want to be done with classes for the day so that I can focus on this fanfic. Yep, that's right, I have two tests this week and still all I can think about is this story that Bree and I are working. And let me just say this, it is a LONG story. We've probably got nearly 300 pages so far and it's not done yet. Not that I'm complaining because I'm having a blast, I just can't believe it's so long!

But the good news is my 8 a.m. class is canceled for Wednesday morning, so I don't have to get up til 7:30, which means I can stay up an hour later than I usually can Tuesday night. :) I do need to study for at least my biology test, though. Hmm...I'll do that in my history class tomorrow. lol

And next week is Spring Break! *does a little happy dance* So hopefully I don't have to work and can alternate between sleeping and working on this story with Bree. :)

Have I mentioned that I can't wait until graduation is over with?

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: "Simple Life" by No Doubt (only in my mind)

You ever just have one of those days where you're just like...blah, I don't feel like doing anything? Kinda how I'm feeling right now. I'm bored, my parents left for my aunt's birthday party and I'm just sitting here in front of my computer trying to think of something interesting to do. Don't feel like doing my homework or working on one of my stories and not much of anything new's been posted at the 55-David board in the past like...13 hours.

Oh, and the fun has now officially begun *Insert sarcasm here* Mom's already telling me that I need to try and get three extra tickets for people for my May graduation ceremony. I tried to point out to her that first of all, they haven't even begun to give out tickets, and secondly, it's not really that big of a deal. We're given 6 tickets to give to people for graduation, and she's not happy about that.

I personally don't care at this point, I just want the whole thing to be over with. My grandma says she won't go without my grandpa, who can't go because he can't sit in the bleacher seats. I don't really want him there in the first place for a ton of personal reasons that are too personal to write in an online journal. So Mom's upset that her mom won't be coming without her husband. Whatever. I don't care. It's not like I'm close to Grandma anyway. It's not like I'm my sister or my cousin, whom are her favorites. I've known this for a long time and am passed the point of giving a shit, quite frankly.

But anyway, so yeah, the "fun" has begun.

I can't wait until May is *over.*

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: "Don't Fear the Reaper" by Gus