xtremeroswellia

when I first got into designing websites. My friend Sarah was the one who guided me through the process. My first fandom online was Roswell and I was one of the first people to build a site dedicated to it. It was called The Max and Liz Project. I remember the thrill of searching free graphics sites for backgrounds and graphics to make the site pretty, and how enthused finding ones that fit perfectly made me.

I wish I had that now. I haven't updated Only Time in like, months and I know I need to because there are about a gazillion stories I want to add to it that Bree and I have written...but now it seems more like a chore than it does fun. That sucks. Maybe I need to completely redesign. I don't know. That thought isn't really thrilling either.

*sighs*

So I get up at 7:40 this morning to get ready for work (which I have at 9). And at 8:25 my boss calls and says he doesn't need me to work today after all, he needs me for tomorrow instead. I'm like, thank you very much, asshole, for having me get up about three hours earlier than I needed to. Jag-off. I really hate my job sometimes.

So I went shopping today. I'm not a shopper. Never have been. Unless it's for books. But it wasn't too bad for a change. Went to Big Lots and Hobby Lobby in search of ribbons and pins to make sexual assault awareness ribbons for April for the events on campus. Found the ribbon, neither place had the pins I needed. I remembered that two of my best friends' birthdays are in the beginning of April, as well as my Dad's, so I get my friend Tim a CD and can't find anything for Sarah or Dad.

I did, however, find myself a new pair of sunglasses and some pretty fake purple flowers. I almost nixed the flower idea but then I was like...you know what? They're three bucks. And I think I'm worth three bucks.

New Third Watch last night. Loved it, except Boz was only in the one scene, but damn he looked good in that one scene. The tension between Faith and Bosco had me on edge and it was great. There's SO much more energy and chemistry between them than between him and Cr*z. And, did you all notice that Tia Texada did NOT appear in the opening credits last night. Apparently (and thank God) Cr*z is only going to be a side character like Fr*d. That makes me feel quite a bit better actually.

Let's see...what else...um...my aunt told me I could come and live with her and my uncle in Virginia if I decide I want to try and find a job out there. The weird part is, I don't even get along that well with this aunt but part of me really wants to go, even if it's just a summer job. Course, that could be partially due to the fact that I could quit the job that I'm currently working. I'm also thinking about somewhere down in New Mexico, cause that's where Sarah lives. I don't know.

And this whole looming war has caused this feeling of dread inside of me. For the past year I've been having nightmares about war and the end of the world, so I'm a little freaked out and trying not to think about it too much. I can see both sides now, I really can. I don't like the idea of war anymore than the next person, but then I think about what happened Sept. 11th and how maybe if our government had done something more preventative, maybe it wouldn't have happened. And maybe that's what this is about, trying to prevent a repeat of that horrible attack. I'm sure that we are not being told *everything* there is to know about what's going on, and who am I to say that we should or should not go to war? I don't know enough about it to really formulate an educated, well spoken opinion. So I guess I'm pretty much riding the middle of the road on this one.

*sighs* And I'm hungry.