xtremeroswellia

Let me preface this by asking you all please not to start launching tomatoes or burning objects in my direction. Okay? *wince*

I think...that my muse has moved on. Chloe/Dean will always be my OTP for Smallville/Supernatural and if I get a bunny that my muse falls in love with, I will write it, I promise. But...right now my muse is pretty much focused on the Jake/Heather love. And if the past is any indication...*scuffs shoe* She'll probably remain there for awhile. I don't tend to double back into a fandom once I'm out of it--very often.

For example, when I jumped fandoms from Third Watch to Joan of Arcadia, I didn't write anymore Third Watch fic, other than a few co-authored fics. There are always exceptions--I did write some Joan fics even though I was diehard Chloe/Dean writing. And I'm not saying I won't occasionally co-author a Chloe/Winchester fic. I love co-authoring *winks at Kate and Katie*

Again, maybe this will be different. And I'm not leaving the Winchullivan communities or anything, but I have to follow my muse. You know?

Sidenote: RL post to follow soon.

I went to the annual Library Labor Day book sale today. Bought 24 books and four CDs for $17.50. Not bad if I say so myself. But that's beside the point...

I ran into three other former members of the writing critique group I belonged to in high school and college. Debby, Linda, and Mindy--all women ranging from probably 40's to 60's. Linda has had one children's book published and she referenced her "ONE book." Mindy didn't really talk about her own writing, but Debby said she'd basically stopped because she just didn't have time.

I don't wanna be like that. Linda sounded bitter, and Debby just sounds like she gave up. I wanted to ask Debby so badly if she feels only half-alive without writing, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. It's such a personal question.

But I'm not ready to quit. I'm not ready to give up this thing I've wanted so long. So yeah...maybe I'm more cynical than I use to be and maybe I have a lot of doubts and little faith. But I haven't quit.

She's seriously contemplating an early return from Antartica (where there are no bugs!!) because she has a new SV Chlark idea. It is intense, but not intense the way "Safe and Sound" was. This is more sci-fi type intense.

*is excited*

My muse is a buttmunch. For some reason she thinks I should be able to write -all- of the fics I've started at ONE time, plus start some original screenplay story. *glares at muse*